panicking

the five choices I had in mind where: Chelsea university, LCC, Portsmouth, Camberwell and that's it really, however now I have lost   Chelsea, LCC for graphic design, Camberwell, and i am not too sure about Portsmouth.
at the moment i have decided to apply for central saint martin, LCC for illustration, maybe Cardiff metropolitan. and now i am stuck with the rest.  

chelsea university

I am stuck with which university to apply for. I had all the five universities in my head before and I was very confident with them, however having been to their workshops or open days they turn out not to be as good as I though they would be. having done the workshop with Chelsea university for the past two weeks its only at the latest session did they reveal how their graphics course is really structured, and I just felt like it was all a waste of my time. their course is extremely guided with clear instructions on what to or not to produce. for example of the guys that shows us he's folio said on one of the projects he was working in, the said he had to produce a design in a certain size, dimension, a certain angle and how it should look. I think if they are being so controlling there's no time for the students creativity or for them to actually experiment with idea generation and making mistakes and learning from them. for this reason I will not be Appling for the graphic design course at Chelsea university.

leeds

I was thinking on applying to leeds university for graphic design, however having looked at the website and read the course structure i have decided the university wasn't for me. i will keep looking at other universities

leeds university

Camberwell

Having been to camberwell university for their open day, I most say I didn't like it has much as I though I would. They have great equipment but I just fell like I just would be comfortable settling down for the place for 3 years of my life. Also on the open day I went to, which was for graphic design, illustration and 3d design the man who was doing the presentation made graphic design fell like it was the top job and he made illustration sound so small it almost sounded like he was saying there's no point doing illustration. He described the difference between graphic design and illustration has " imagine a building, the architect is the graphics designer and the illustrator is the guy who does the plumbing or the wall paper". This quote he made, makes me really think about the choices I have made concerning my course choices. The university made graphic design sound like the god of the university and illustration that tiny plan in your garden which will never grow or is very difficult to find friends. So for these reasons I will not be applying for camberwell 

Personal statement

Been working on my personal and I got a couple of important questions answered, but still got a long way to go. Like the most difficult part of yr13 so far

University

For reasons abundantly not clear to me I am very scared when it will come to writing my personal statement. Its always hard for me or anyone to write about them selves. I have been doing some reason but its just not clear to me what exactly I have to do. I really hope I get this done wish me luck